Okay but seriously if you are attending college while experiencing any sort of mental illness then you are an impressive human being. Even if you don’t always make it to classes. Even if you don’t always do your homework or pass all your tests. You are doing something that is incredibly difficult when so many of the odds are against you, and regardless of what you are studying you deserve a Ph.D. in being a total and complete badass.
So, I really needed to hear this.
Every semester, something huge happens and I have a complete breakdown and fuck everything up…and then feel shitty and just ugh and I hate it because I always start out trying soooo hard.
I don’t think it’s a motivation thing, like I usually think it is. I think I have crazy stuff going on in my life, due to some sort of imbalance that is beyond my control.
I haven’t had a breakdown yet, and the semester is almost over…and even though I could have tried harder, and I could have handled more, or handled what I had “better,” or WHATEVER…
Soooo I’m proud of myself. I am choosing to be proud of myself, regardless.
I dunno if I am gonna do well, or pass everything. And parts of me care so deeply and parts of me are just like FUCK IT.
But yeah, I’m proud of myself.